im wondering if anyone out there has ever felt inadequate... thats how i feel.. very inadequate..  for life in general.. like i dont measure up like im missing that key element to things.. sometimes i just wanna throw something.. i feel like people piss me off alot but really it was my fault and i apologize.. i feel like my life is really going no where.. though i am happy.. i guess tonight is one of those blah nights.. i really am alot happier then i used to be! i mean its just life i will find someone or someone will find me.. im sure.. i hope..