have you ever felt that while in a crowd surrounded by people that you feel all alone. That you just simply cant talk to anybody. That its to quiet and you want your own space,a nd to just be by yourself. however you also feel that you dont want to be alone.. you would give you arm to be able to go up and talk to someone anyone and hold a conversation with that person. You feel like your stuck tothe ground where you stand and you just glance around and hope to not catch someones eye for fear that they will wave to you and want to talk.

this is how i feel. one side of me pulls to be alone. to sit alone and to go home where its safe... safe sound and most of the time quiet. where my own thoughts have space in my head. the other part however longs to be a socialite who can talk to everyone. a regular social butterfly who is well spoken and well mannered. who gets along with everyone and is not so shy about stuff...

however i am.. i can stand there and hold a minute or two convo then im lost for words.. and i rarley if ever start the conversation.. i guess you can say im just the shy type..i dont ever talk much inless you know me wel enough and i can talk to you.. however et me in a crowdd situation.. im quiet as a mouse.. i dont talk inless spoken to.. i only answer if i know what the answer is.. overall im usually very content being quiet..

i so envy those people who can just go out take risks, and talk with people.. who are social butterflys so to speak.. if im passionate about somethin i have do have a few people i go to, to talk to...

for me its hard because im so quiet.. i just wouldnt dream of opening up and saying anything... let alone make a conversation.. maybe one day ill be brave like so many of the people i know... for now i guess ill keep up my chatting online. theres not much else i can do i dont think..