Do you know the worst part about wanting a relationship and not having one because of distance... is that it falls apart... I always let myself get attached and I have to pull myself away and it becomes a very painful process.... but other then that I'm doing ok... I miss I'm just going to say you... I miss you... and you know who you are.... I miss you very much.. Even if you never talk to me again or want nothing to do with me... I will still always miss you.... and that I very much care about you.... and I think will always... just let me know you are ok....

Well moving on I stop being a member of the org today.... I withdrawled so much I didn't feel connected or use ful any more.. And there are so many memories there and I will miss it... but I guess life is leading in a new direction and I should probably lead where it takes me ... no matter where it is.. I hope I will still be able to have contact with the people at the org....and that even though I'm not a member there anymore that they will still talk to me...

Well I guess ill go now.. I don't usually like to ramble to much..... well sometimes I do.. But this is where I get all my talking out.. I don't do much of it in real life no matter how much I have the capability too.... off I go for now....