the way i feel

so .... i have not written in here in a while... i think its hard now to write.. because when i do i remeber an important part of me that is not anymore existent and i dont think can be.. an important person is not part of my life..and it hurts alot... to just feel like your not cared for at all and that you were just left out... to let someone control you for so long its hard... then they dont respond to you.. its so cold... i dont know how to explain it.. im more hurt then i want to be i think.. i need to work on that.. not letting myself get hurt..

but moving on i cut my hair.. and i like it alot.. and i feel better now that i have done it.. and started to alter the way i live a little bit.. just a better way of life.. anyways.. i think im going to go now.. ttyl blog.. maybe even tomorrow ill hop on and write a bit!