anyways i finally found something about myself... that i can be quite content no matter where i am in life.. one day i just woke up smiling.. and smiling at work for no reason... and its nice to know that i still can smile for no reason.. and that i dont cry all the time..
well my mom has a boyfriend.... and he is over here on the weekeneds mostly.. alllll weekned.. and im so thrilled for my mom.. but at the same time.. its near nauseating too... i mean they go to dinner and to disney land.. and she takes the day off for him... and its cute.. but honestly it makes me soooo uncomfortable to have him here.. i really wish i had my own place.. but then i would be lonely too... but i mean it went to at least seeing and talking to here at least twice a week.. to maybe once a week... maaaybe! i miss my mom i guess.... and its soooo hard cause i sooo want her to be happy and in love and finding someone she really cares about but at the same time i want to keep her to myself... i have never had to share my mom before.. her children have always come first... and its about time she put herself first and find love... i guess its harder then i thought it would be... i always knew she would find soemone.. but i cant just have a girl talk with my mom because he is here... he is a really nice guy too.. i dont know proably just overwhelming emotions from something new.. ill get past it...
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