sooo i had been hearing sounds from my moms bedroom with her and her boyfriend which i have more or less gotten those feelings under control but well then i started hearing spankings comming from her room and i dissmissed them at first because well no one really wants to picture someone getting spanked in the next room especially not my mom!!! well i went to breakfast with them today and my friend from NY came and visited and stayed with us (more on that later) but anyways she was like here let me talk to her because she was IM ing me and i was like hold on because her names not appropriate for you too see so give me a minute but then she was like here just let me see so i did and she didn't say anything until she had said hello to her and stuff and then she was like "so why did you think i would say that was not appropriate" i said because your my mom and i dunno your my mom... so ya. and she was like " so she is into S&M"and i said umm ya she is.. (sorry i sounds like a valley girl i swear i use "like" so much when im in real life or i try not too.. haha) anyways so i was totally blown out of the water.. of couse i would never tell her that im into some of that stuff.... but anyways i was really shocked.. i mean in the whole wide world... my mom of all ppl and she is not prudish by any standard... im pretty sure i gave her a shock when me and my friend were taking a shower and playing in the shower and she heard it.. i gave her a huge shock.. she still thinks im straight good thing to cause i told her i was (and dont get me wrong i am... i still want a husband.. but i am enjoying exploring my bi side with a trusted friend) but anyways i guess shock for shock huh.. its kinda creepy in a way though.. and when i found out my mom had sex toys.. well i kinda already knew but i mean i was just harmlessly looking for tylenol one day and i happened across my mom most life like dildo... whew i was aaaa just a bit blown out of the water just a few feet mind you :) ..... anyways... this week has been interesting...
oh yes with my friend that was here from NY... yes she had fun... and enjoyed everything.. even the sweet torture i put here through. im definitely more Domme with her here especially in the bedroom but she is the only one.. besides on other person i feel comfortable with and have the right personality that just brings that out in me.. anyways yes it was a first and soooo very interesting experience i had lots of fun and and hope to repeat the fun some other time ! :D
anyways ok not to be a bit of a downer but i found out today and i dont know why i didnt catch on sooner is that people are not all they make themselves up to be.. people honestly have trouble. with well honesty... if you have a problem dont have an attitude with me dammit just tell me... im not stupid i sense it.. if your nice to me one day and then rude to me and cold then next something must have happened so just tell me... ok sorry i just had to get that out ive been having some problems with reality latley where it seems to be a shock when people are cold and a bit distant i dont know why maybe i just haven't kept my eyes open lately definitely need to work on keeping my eyes open... no need to walk through fire if i can avoid it!!!!
ok well its midnight now so i think im going to go to bed... thanks for listening blog...
~ash~
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