ignoring my room like its the plague!

have you ever thought of the small little things that control you.. im talking about your fears. those things that you cant stand to see to touch to smell taste touch or hear. For example, do you avoid going to the doctor because you have a fear of needles, or even a fear of doctors. or do you purpsefely not go to your best friends house because they have a snake, or even a dog because you fear them.. well my fear is of spiders and i am missing out completely on a few hours of sleep because there is one little spider in my room.. i mean im afraid to even go into my room xcept maybe from the door way i man i have the worst fear of them. it all most makes me physically sick to even think about going in later to get dressed.. and the hard part is that i dont know where the spider is now so i might not sleep for a few day or at least wont sleep in my room because of this litlle ok oto me larger then life spider is crawling around somewhere.. why cant it be like charolotte and talk to me and be like its ok dont fear me.. but no im am  afraid and now i cant sleep just to even think about it gives me the kreeps! i dont know what  to do now cause i cant go enjoy my bed.. and i was enjoying myself before.. wink wink.. and sleep so now im stuck at the computer blogging because ive got a big does  of fear.. no not coward ive killed spiders efore but the moment leading up to the kill was and is always a moment of dread  because im afraid of them.. and i dont like going near them at all... but i am so tired.. maybe ill try and go lay down........... on the couch........... i told you im afraid what can i do nothing... but try to avoid them at all cost