just waiting

well ok ok ill officially say im starting to get sick.. i think it has at least  a little something to do with my work and how stress of life and stuff there just getting to me. i took some tylenol cold nightime right now so ill go to sleep pretty soon.. however what is nice is i have to make it through wednesday and thursday then i have three days off in a row! so that will be super nice.. and i can rest up then hopefully.. i keep refusing though that im sick because its better to believe your not sick... sometimes positive thoughts can help.. but when your a bit down and out it doesnt help.. anyways im going to go lay down now... and you know what my brother is sick to... and kids at work coughing on me.. and sneezing doesnt help ... ok im going to fall asleep any minute now! goodnight..

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 I have lost myself and I don't know how...

I am on the edge ready to fall..

the break downs coming I can feel it building

the tears are ready their just waiting 

right below the surface I am ready to break

its all coming down to this moment

if I survive this fall.