this week has been a sleepless week .. a week of challenges and overwhelming emotions... i cant stand the fact when someone is angry with me or upset with me id rather have everyone happy with everything i do.. now i know thats impossible im bound to let people down.. it happens and i cant do anything to prevent it except do my best.. ive been granted a restart and i hope to make good on that re start.. i hope that i can show that i am willing to do everything and learn from my mistakes and im trying.. ... an assigment from my Master... "go get binder clips... small ones" and so i did. but i think i wont be able to handle them my pain tolerance in my breast is fairly low.. i have a very difficult time with any pain.. so i tested it out.. i do want to make my Master happy.. and so i got my nipple hard.. and gently eased it on.. well i was still holding it i ccouldnt let it go it was already enough pain to make me go.. oh ouch ouch och.. OMG noooo.. that hurts etc.. im afraid ihave failed my Master on this front..i do appreciate him pushing me to new levels.. but i dont know if my breast can take that level yet.. maybe a gradual working up to it? just a suggestion! i am Sorry.. if your reading this.. .. im sorry i cant endure everything for you.. and that i cant be perfect.. ill learn and build my tolerances for you.... again i am sorry. anyways..
my week has been crazy from work to home to life issues.. its one o those weeks you just wanna curl up and cry... but i wont cry.. i will be strong.. and i will push pass this.. i will look ahead to where it is open land .. and open areas.. and clean air and strive to be there from where im at now... after all every one has there problems.. everyone has there stresses and lifes down falls. everyone has an excuse and a reason.. thats really an excuse.. maybe i will learn that i need to live excuse free.. and that this to shall pass... and as i sit here and its all a little over consumming that my time will come these problems will pass and as i pass through them i will learn something new ... and i will grow as a person... i so hope this will pass through soon and the lesson will not be lost on me.. anyways.. lol
enough contemplation.. thats my sunday entry.. more to come im sure in the coming week.. off to do something maybe like clean my room more.. ohh its coming along. just its a huge task.... im trying..and im going to keep pushing though.....
love you
love your slut...
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