make it or break it

You ever feel a knife stab you.. I'm being literal yes I mean really stab you.... now imagine that pain... yes it would hurt.. Ok it would be dire.. So let me explain, the last day or now 2 days I have had this comming and going of knife like stabbing pain in my upper right side under my breast and just down a fraction or so and close to my side but still on the front I think at least.. It last for a little bit a few minutes sometimes more, and its pain pure pain radiating in that spot, and I get nasious.. Its not fun, least I never throw up, but it brings me to the verge of tears, especially if it happens back to back, I try to be strong and not show pain, but I do go even more pale then I already am when I am in pain....or when I hurt like that.. And then it goes away slowly but it does go away eventually.. And then nothing just leaves me slightly nasious and sensitive in the side...I can't afford to go to the doctors and have it looked at.. I already owe them, and I truthfully I'm scared.. Honestly can't be completley honest but ya there other emotions going on too.. But scared is a big one..and I don't know how I'm going to get through this but I will! Tomorrow I'm going to start eating completely healthy... for the task, but I'm going to see how it goes, and I hope if well ill be able to keep it going and maybe this will dissapear! Who never the impossible has happened before, I just hope I can make it to the otherside before I break....