Somewhere in the haze of things, of our own thinking really we come across a thought... one that triggers us to think more.. I came across a thought today...

My thought was what submission means to me....

As I was kneeling for my punishment.. A not at all fun task... with clothepins on my nipples and my pussy lips.. I thought what submission means to me... I found out it means a lot to me...

It means that when you ask or are assigned something you do it with everything you are.. It means that you don't just kneel with the clothepegs on, it means you kneel in the proper fitting way with the proper posture and the correct mindset... it nearly made me cry this thought...

As I was kneeling there and this thought crossed my mind.. I sat up straighter laced my fingers behind my neck pulled my shoulders back and reapeated I'm sorry Sir... over and over.. I added in other things like please forgive me Sir.. And I was wrong Sir I'm so very sorry.. I will do better Sir... I felt as if I was in trouble... don't get me wrong I was in trouble but I felt like he was there behind me shaking his head in utter disspoitment... but as time went by his a smile played over his lips and his mood lightened and when I finally stood up stretched and took the clamps off he would have been there to ease the pain... RR or also know to me as FS I know would have been right there carressing my sore nips and my pussy lips making the hurt go away and giving me a kiss before warning me to follow directions next time...

Submission is a powerful thing.. And it can go deep within a person... I want to learn how to deepen my submission so that when things come up arrise and its a question of doing it or doing it right.. That no matter what I always do it right.. That I always put my all forward without hestiancy or delay...that's just my personal goal...