Ok well you know when you just ready to explode... and things are just eating at you.. And you just can't help but cry and u just breaking down over stupid things... well me and my family just got in a huge fight... and so I just went walking to cool down.. It didn't help I just need to go somewhere else and cry.. Ya know sit on a bench and cry my heart out till I'm done until its all out and I can't cry no more because its getting to be to much! Honestly I nearly cried when my manager was talking to me about something really stupid that happened.. And I needed to make sure it didn't happen again and I was nearly crying!! Even I was like why the heck am I crying.. Well I know why I'm crying.. Just I shouldn't get upset.. And of course my mom is like what's wrong... somethings wrong and ur notsaying anything... and I'm like well why would I its not ur problems.. Its mine and I'm not going to add my to urs there mine to take care of not yours.. Which sucks cause its all pretty much finacial stuff which I can't really take care of on my own at this point well I can I just have to keep putting stuff like bills on the back burner till I can pay them... which I don't know how I'm going to finish paying them off if I have everything else to pay off.. And this trip is not helping.. Just stress after stress is adding up and I can't help but cry.. Because its all I can take not to cry... I know this is alll randome stuff.. Just chatter.. But seriously... sometimes.. When I feel like I can't take it anymore I feel like I'd rather not take it anymore... it gets to that point where I'd rather end it all then rather take another step... its hard to explain exactly what goes through my mind... but that thought gets through just fine... and sometimes its enticing like it lingers.. Its never happened though when I was a teenager I tried.. Half hearted attempts though.. Nothing serious.. And right now I'm too level headed to do that or even attempt it.. A wuss most likely.. I don't enjoy pain or any thought of it.. And I have a great fear of heights and I know to attempts of by friends that just ended up in pain... how I want to die... in my sleep.. Very quietly with my husband holding my hand or someone I love with me... anyways.. That's just thoughts that crossed my mind tonight... I'm sorry Master I will post this on the Org as well I will have to do that task when I get back from my trip... all will be well in the morning light... I hope whoever reads this that your week is going well and that ur smiling... :) one thing that God created that I absolutely with out a doubt love is a smile a really big enviting smile... u don't know what a smile can do for someone it can warm a persons day right up.. Or it can even make someone smile right back! So give someone a smile... and remember to smile for yourself.. And maybe think of something secret and naughty.. And have a great week!

my week just a part of it.. and lessons leanred

Hmm to sum my week in 15 minutes would be impossible so I'm just jotting down my thought.. Work well I don't like work.. Not working but where I work.. I don't like it... I can't make it better so I've been trying to just go with the flow of it... I just can't do anything right.. Sigh moving on.. I did procrastinate a bit with NickX task on display but I got it done! And did the erotic story that was good.. I like doing that!I did 13 cums for my Master.. That was interesting and fun... got some good cums in.. Oo and the last one was by far the best... I learned this week that bladder infections arnt fun... that going to the doctors is vital to my health... I leanred that I need a physical.. And that blood tests will be required.... I also learned that my brother can be nice... I learned that I can ignore him if I so choose but hat I can be nice to him even if he is not to me.. I learned that having a clean car and bedroom.. Which neither is currently is something I want and need to work towards.. Because it makes me happpy.. I learned that I have a lot on my mind.. I learned I cry easy.. But I also laugh easy.. I leanred that I love knowing more about myself.. I learned that talking dirty is hard for me.. And that I'm more inclined to talk sweetly... I learned that despite the fact wheather I have tons of friends or none at all that I do have people who really love me.. I learned that life is not always what we want it to be but what we make it to be.. Oh and one more vital important lesson.. When u need to take ur medicine.. First eat.. And secondly don't finish ur drink and then take ur medicine it won't work!!! Ok on to work now!

my next objective.. 13 objects.. mmmm

Master Michael is in red.. and then i am just me.. in black...

well then we will need to imporvise

countrygl_21

ok

so when do you leave

countrygl_21

i leave very early thrusday morning

ok

and will you ve back

or are you dumping me

countrygl_21

i am not and would not dump you!!

lol

kiss I know

countrygl_21

i will be back monday night probably..

ok

kiss

so what works for you

countrygl_21

or wait

sunday night

i dont know..

umm i will always be on my side kick

if your want to talk to me.. or if you are on

ok so the nights you are not, so it may take 17 days then

but still thirteen objects

countrygl_21

mm ok

you may not cum

report everyday if you can on your now updated blog, I will look

countrygl_21

ok i can do that

so let me see, when you can you will find 13 insertable objects, masturbate with them to edge and report

countrygl_21

ok

I will decide when and where you can have your next O

countrygl_21

yes Master

you may be surprised

I do want my cum slut to cum, but then a little longing is good too

countrygl_21

ohhh yes that is treu

true

a quick text will definatelhy earn us points

My 13th Cum For Master

Here is my 13th cum for the record books.

ashley: Yes Master
ashley: Would u like me on the bed or the floor?
Master Michael: That does have some relations to the position I told you about, that you are still to report about
Master Michael: smile, your choice my love, I can take you either way
ashley: Oh yes the slavers kiss
ashley: I practiced this morning
Master Michael: smile yes
Master Michael: kiss
ashley: On the bed if u don't mind
Master Michael: love you now cum for me
ashley: Yes Master
Master Michael: tell me what you are doing and I will add a lot
ashley: I have a sheet ready to catch my ssquirt and my vibe placed under me
ashley: And I'm going to rub a little lube on my clit
ashley: That will make it tingle a little
Master Michael: oh please do, you know how moist I like your
Master Michael: cunt to be
ashley: And I took off my shirt so I am now naked for you
Master Michael: Kiss oh I can now reach in front and squeeze your nipples, tweeking them in my grasp
Master Michael: I squeeze very hard
Master Michael: you wince
ashley: I put a pillow under the sheet so I can more easily have the vibe against my clit
ashley: And can hump it like a dog if u should like me to
Master Michael: you will soon have my hand in you
Master Michael: to the wrist
ashley: Mmm
Master Michael: can you take it my love, are you ready? get it nice and wet for me, my cock will soon follow
ashley: I'm rubbing my clit back and forth on my clit now
ashley: Ohhh
ashley: Ohh
ashley: Yeeess
ashley: Mmmmmmmmm
Master Michael: yes I see you, rubbing nad your hips are bucking wanting something
ashley: Ohh yess!!
Master Michael: I take my hand and take over the rubbing
ashley: Pleassee
ashley: Ohhhh
ashley: Mmm
Master Michael: I am afraid I am rubbing you raw
ashley: Pleeasseee ohh
ashley: Mmmmmm
Master Michael: one finger sneaks in to you
Master Michael: I thrust deep and hard
ashley: Oooooooo
Master Michael: faster and faster, then I add another digit
Master Michael: you are so wet my love
ashley: Ooooohh
ashley: Yess
Master Michael: my hand is bathed in your juices
Master Michael: another finger that makes three
ashley: Ohh yess
ashley: Oooo
Master Michael: thrusting deep feeling you deep inside, all the little curves you offer me
ashley: My body open for u
Master Michael: I feel a nubbly thing
ashley: Ooooo
ashley: Yeess
Master Michael: I rub it, is that the spot my love
ashley: Oooo
ashley: Mmmm
Master Michael: I cant help myself four fingers
ashley: Pleease!!!!!!
Master Michael: deep and hard as I thrust my hand almost my fist into your dripping pussy
ashley: Mmmmm
Master Michael: My thumb finds a home once again deep in your ass
ashley: Ooo pleease
ashley: Mmmmm
Master Michael: You are at my finger tips like a boweling ball
ashley: Please!!
Master Michael: I jam and rotate my hand
ashley: I caqnt hold it innnn
ashley: Pleasse
Master Michael: your cries of more
ashley: Pllleleeassee
ashley: Omg
Master Michael: I take my hand out and jam my hard cock in your pussy, to the hilt, you warmth envelopes me
ashley: Oooo
ashley: Ooooooo
Master Michael: I keep my thumb in your ass as I stoke in and out
ashley: Pleeease
ashley: Ooh yessss
Master Michael: now that my hand is free I jam two fingers in your rosebud, now three as I fuck you like there was no tomorrow
ashley: Oooo
ashley: Yesss
Master Michael: I thrust, and you buck back into my cock, it makes a squishing splashing sound
ashley: Ppppleeeeasse Master
Master Michael: faster and faster you through yourslef into me, how much more I can take I do not know
Master Michael: my 4 fingers plung in and out of your ass in unison to my needy cock
Master Michael: pump, pump I do
ashley: Oooo
Master Michael: OMG I am ready to cum my slut
ashley: Please
Master Michael: take me deep, squeeze me tight as I do, try to break my cock in two
ashley: Yes Master
ashley: I need to cumm
Master Michael: thursting so very hard,
Master Michael: cum my love cum with me
ashley: Plleeease
Master Michael: arrgggg cum I am holding out for you
ashley: Ooooooo
ashley: Yeess
ashley: Cumm yes cumming
Master Michael: one final thrust, I push hard as deep as I can go, every milimeter of my cock is in you and I have more than four fingers in your longing ass
Master Michael: I hold you tight
Master Michael: as we catch out breathe
ashley: Ooo yesss...
Master Michael: OMG I say to myself, thank you for sharing that part of you with me
Master Michael: I whisper that into your ear
ashley: Thankyou Master,
ashley: Oomg thatw
ashley: Was amazing
Master Michael: I kiss your panting mouth and we exchange a breath or two
Master Michael: We hold each other tight like there is no tomorrow, we did not fuck, we made love
Master Michael: Kiss Thank you
ashley: Holding close to each other
ashley: Kiss thankyou soo much
Master Michael: Kiss so you made the 13
ashley: I made the 13
ashley: U
ashley: U made the thirteen
ashley: I couldn't have done it without u
Master Michael: smile kiss
Master Michael: yes you could have and do you see the time,
ashley: Mmm
Master Michael: exactly
ashley: My clit is still throbbing
Master Michael: smile you did so good, I am impressed
ashley: Yes I do
Master Michael: High noon on your end
ashley: Yes
Master Michael: ok let me know when you are recoverd
ashley: Mmmm if I don't move again it will be too soon
Master Michael: it may take me a few too
ashley: Ok
ashley: Give me a minute or two
Master Michael: yes kiss as I hold you
Master Michael: my cum slut did so well
ashley: Thankyou Master
Master Michael: Tell me right now what you are thinking and how it felt
ashley: It felt amazing.. I did not think I could hold off but I did and it felt so goood
ashley: I had to force it out
ashley: But that was ok
ashley: I feel so week
ashley: Weak
ashley: So wonderously loved and satisfied
Master Michael: Kiss

my mantra if approved

My body open, Every inch of me exposed just for you. Please take me and use me as you please I am yours to use.

Master may I please Orgasm and cum for you. Please I need to my body needs your pleasure wants your cock so bad. Your cum slut craves to cum and craves your cock in her cunt and is so horny she will do anything to cum for you.... please grant your cum slut her wish... please let her cum with you and for you.... pleeassee.. Ohh please let me have ur cock...and be able to taste your jusices on her face... please let me cum.... I'm just a horny cum slut who needs and craves to cum.

My begging posted for you Master

Omg my hip hurts sooo bad! I think I'm going to scream.. But no that's not a good idea.. I think ill keep its low.. Yes and scream later! Well see I think its the medicine the doctor put me on its cleaning out everything.. Or so she says.. And I keep havening to go to the restroom.. And dang it it hurts! And its no fun.. I don't have time for this if ya know what I mean and I'm not really in the mood either.. It makes my stomach cramp.. And I get very irritated when that happens.. Anyways and I have a task from Master.. To cum 12 times before noon on saturday.. Question is .. Can I come if I am feeling so crappy!