I have officially yesterday started being a pee slut. My Master controls how I pee. Yesterday I was to pee on my hand. Today my first pee was to be peed on my hand and then licked up. The rest of the day I am to pee in a bowl.

These are new area to me. I don't usually pee and then taste my pee.but I did this morning. It tasted a little sweetish but not really... and it smelled awful. I did not like the taste nor the secent. But I liked it up as was required then promptly washed my hands... I am deffinetley not a fan of dirty hands! Anyways we'll see how the rest of the day turns out....

Oh yes and I must not forget... I need to carry a diaper in my purse with me at all times. I'm a bit embarrased by this and deffintley afraid if anyone will find out.. Hopefully not! But I might be randomly told to go and put my diaper on...mmm not sure how I feel about that.. Its an interesting step....

And now also on to a lesson in pain. For an hour today I am to have pegs on my nipples for 5 minutes and off for 10 minutes. When I have the pegs on I am to edge but I am under any circumstances not allowed to cum unless permission is given... ok well there is our new step forward.. What were trying out... I am happy to be doing this for my Master....and that my best will please him....

I'm soo pissed off right now.. I can't even stand it.. I was just fine but the minute mister know it all snaps his fingers I automatically have to fallow..I say screw him... then I get in trouble I've been verbally abused all day and made fun of and laughed at.. All day long.. Thanks to my ***ahdjshd brother.... good for nothing.... I'm so furious right now...I'm going to be sick if I'm not careful... crying to much and stuff... I'm so done... so done right now....

A Story to pleasure my Master

You graciously invited me on a week trip to a boat on lake michigan. I accepted gratefully I needed to get away, and you offered me a perfect opurtunity. I didn't know what was going to happen when we got up there but I figured you had it all planned out. You sent me an email the night before.

Dear slut,

You will be properly prepared to travel by me. You do not need to do a thing. Don't worry this is a stress free week for both you and I and I only want you to enjoy yourself. You may use the restroom when you get up but then its straight back to bed. I will use my key to come in. Just relax. Have a wonderfull evening see you tomorrow.

Love,

Master

I thought ohh well fun! You do know how to pamper me. I couldn't wait...

That night I didn't think I'd ever get to sleep but honestly it was the best sleep I had in ages. When I woke up I did indeed have to go to the bathroom. I followed your directions and made sure I only went to the bathroom and straight back to bed. I then promptly fell back asleep.

When I woke again it was to you stroking my hair very gentley. You were whispering come on my angel wake up its near noon and we need to get you ready for this week trip.

You pick me up in your arms and take me to the bathroom. You tell me this week you will follow all my directions your to be under my tottal control. Do you understand pet?"

"Yes Master I understand"

You then begin to undress me slowly touching my body with your fingers turning me on. Finally you dive a finger in my pussy and look at me with a big grin as I smile at you. "A bit horny this morning slut?" "yes Master... mmmm" you slowly work me up till I'm flushed and you stop I go to say something and u stick ur finger in my mouth and I automatically suck on it. You begin to talk to me working your finger in my pussy and then back to my mouth where I suck on it like a pacifier. You slowly rub your hand up and down my back and say"a few rules, you will not talk unless I give permission to talk. You will obey all orders and do what I ask of you. You will not touch yourself unless I give permission. Do you understand slut"my simple reply as always is "yes Master.""that's my girl. Now lets get you into the bath tub and get a shower going." You quickly undress and lift me up and set me in the tub and shut the doors when you walk in. You fix the water to just the appropriate tempeture and pull me under the water and give me a deep passionate kiss. You then turn me around and get my body and hair wet. You then set me on the seat that is built in and begin to wash my body as I sit there and blush as you run ur hands over my flesh. And use soap to massage my body while u wash me.

A Story to pleasure my Master

You graciously invited me on a week trip to a boat on lake michigan. I accepted gratefully I needed to get away, and you offered me a perfect opurtunity. I didn't know what was going to happen when we got up there but I figured you had it all planned out. You sent me an email the night before.

Dear slut,

You will be properly prepared to travel by me. You do not need to do a thing. Don't worry this is a stress free week for both you and I and I only want you to enjoy yourself. You may use the restroom when you get up but then its straight back to bed. I will use my key to come in. Just relax. Have a wonderfull evening see you tomorrow.

Love,

Master

I thought ohh well fun! You do know how to pamper me. I couldn't wait...

That night I didn't think I'd ever get to sleep but honestly it was the best sleep I had in ages. When I woke up I did indeed have to go to the bathroom. I followed your directions and made sure I only went to the bathroom and straight back to bed. I then promptly fell back asleep.

When I woke again it was to you stroking my hair very gentley. You were whispering come on my angel wake up its near noon and we need to get you ready for this week trip.

You pick me up in your arms and take me to the bathroom. You tell me this week you will follow all my directions your to be under my tottal control. Do you understand pet?"

"Yes Master I understand"

You then begin to undress me slowly touching my body with your fingers turning me on. Finally you dive a finger in my pussy and look at me with a big grin as I smile at you. "A bit horny this morning slut?" "yes Master... mmmm" you slowly work me up till I'm flushed and you stop I go to say something and u stick ur finger in my mouth and I automatically suck on it. You begin to talk to me working your finger in my pussy and then back to my mouth where I suck on it like a pacifier. You slowly rub your hand up and down my back and say"a few rules, you will not talk unless I give permission to talk. You will obey all orders and do what I ask of you. You will not touch yourself unless I give permission. Do you understand slut"my simple reply as always is "yes Master.""that's my girl. Now lets get you into the bath tub and get a shower going." You quickly undress and lift me up and set me in the tub and shut the doors when you walk in. You fix the water to just the appropriate tempeture and pull me under the water and give me a deep passionate kiss. You then turn me around and get my body and hair wet. You then set me on the seat that is built in and begin to wash my body as I sit there and blush as you run ur hands over my flesh. And use soap to massage my body while u wash me.

Its a new day... sigh.... I didn't sleep well at all... and I'm so very tired... and emotionally on edge still! I can't believe it! Still yes I know! I'm a disaster and I know it! My body hurts from lifting catologs yesterday.. Oh my legs hurt so bad every inch of them.. And it doesn't help that I feel like I'm going to puke.. But maybe that would help! I sure as hell wish I knew! I do know that I have to surivive this trip somehow and hopefully my side kick will provide that survival for me... sometimes you need help to survive from insanity don't get me wrong I love my grandma and my grandpa dearly... however they are hard people to love because they not as emotional as I am and they don't understand that its important to talk to people about something other then there trip sacross the world.. Like how's life going.. Ur garden how about church... grandpa how's ur bikes how do they ride.. Been on any rides latley.. Etc.. Yes I ask all these questions.. And then they love to complain.. And be uptight.. Its so annoying....... its for sure not what I wish they were.. I wish they could justbe yunderstanding and loving... and then they wouldn't be them I guess.. I do love them I do... I just don't get along well with them... words hurt especially when said how she says them and so d my step moms words.. I don't want to hear it.. So don't tell me.. Can't everyone just get along.. In a nice polite setting! Jeez is it soooo hard to just be nice for awhile.. Oh I have no doubt she thinks she's being polite.. By giving me a backhanded compliment.. It doesn't work that way for me! I don't like backhanded compliments I rather not be complimented at all.. Keep you thoughts to yourself... that's what I think.. I'm sorry I'm so undecided about this trip... I can't breathe right now.. I need space.. So I can just be me! Room to brethe air that clenses and restores for once! If only I had the time I would! Sorry to any that read this... I haven't bee myself in ages not that I know who that is anymore I suspect she's somewhere where there are no stresses and life is good.. Ill be that person again one day.. Once I get past whatever this is... and I will I have no doubt of that! It'll be back to happy me! Anyways ill probably be back later... that's not for sure.. Bright spot in day.f mom very graciously and mom like paid to let me download 20 songs on my ipod! That was fun!

Ok well you know when you just ready to explode... and things are just eating at you.. And you just can't help but cry and u just breaking down over stupid things... well me and my family just got in a huge fight... and so I just went walking to cool down.. It didn't help I just need to go somewhere else and cry.. Ya know sit on a bench and cry my heart out till I'm done until its all out and I can't cry no more because its getting to be to much! Honestly I nearly cried when my manager was talking to me about something really stupid that happened.. And I needed to make sure it didn't happen again and I was nearly crying!! Even I was like why the heck am I crying.. Well I know why I'm crying.. Just I shouldn't get upset.. And of course my mom is like what's wrong... somethings wrong and ur notsaying anything... and I'm like well why would I its not ur problems.. Its mine and I'm not going to add my to urs there mine to take care of not yours.. Which sucks cause its all pretty much finacial stuff which I can't really take care of on my own at this point well I can I just have to keep putting stuff like bills on the back burner till I can pay them... which I don't know how I'm going to finish paying them off if I have everything else to pay off.. And this trip is not helping.. Just stress after stress is adding up and I can't help but cry.. Because its all I can take not to cry... I know this is alll randome stuff.. Just chatter.. But seriously... sometimes.. When I feel like I can't take it anymore I feel like I'd rather not take it anymore... it gets to that point where I'd rather end it all then rather take another step... its hard to explain exactly what goes through my mind... but that thought gets through just fine... and sometimes its enticing like it lingers.. Its never happened though when I was a teenager I tried.. Half hearted attempts though.. Nothing serious.. And right now I'm too level headed to do that or even attempt it.. A wuss most likely.. I don't enjoy pain or any thought of it.. And I have a great fear of heights and I know to attempts of by friends that just ended up in pain... how I want to die... in my sleep.. Very quietly with my husband holding my hand or someone I love with me... anyways.. That's just thoughts that crossed my mind tonight... I'm sorry Master I will post this on the Org as well I will have to do that task when I get back from my trip... all will be well in the morning light... I hope whoever reads this that your week is going well and that ur smiling... :) one thing that God created that I absolutely with out a doubt love is a smile a really big enviting smile... u don't know what a smile can do for someone it can warm a persons day right up.. Or it can even make someone smile right back! So give someone a smile... and remember to smile for yourself.. And maybe think of something secret and naughty.. And have a great week!

my week just a part of it.. and lessons leanred

Hmm to sum my week in 15 minutes would be impossible so I'm just jotting down my thought.. Work well I don't like work.. Not working but where I work.. I don't like it... I can't make it better so I've been trying to just go with the flow of it... I just can't do anything right.. Sigh moving on.. I did procrastinate a bit with NickX task on display but I got it done! And did the erotic story that was good.. I like doing that!I did 13 cums for my Master.. That was interesting and fun... got some good cums in.. Oo and the last one was by far the best... I learned this week that bladder infections arnt fun... that going to the doctors is vital to my health... I leanred that I need a physical.. And that blood tests will be required.... I also learned that my brother can be nice... I learned that I can ignore him if I so choose but hat I can be nice to him even if he is not to me.. I learned that having a clean car and bedroom.. Which neither is currently is something I want and need to work towards.. Because it makes me happpy.. I learned that I have a lot on my mind.. I learned I cry easy.. But I also laugh easy.. I leanred that I love knowing more about myself.. I learned that talking dirty is hard for me.. And that I'm more inclined to talk sweetly... I learned that despite the fact wheather I have tons of friends or none at all that I do have people who really love me.. I learned that life is not always what we want it to be but what we make it to be.. Oh and one more vital important lesson.. When u need to take ur medicine.. First eat.. And secondly don't finish ur drink and then take ur medicine it won't work!!! Ok on to work now!